Standing Still but have to more straight and firm..

Im still standing but must keep up straight and firm.Hate this feel and feel unuf all of these!Cannot count on anyone anymore!Must stand on myself and go for what i want and what i want to do!I think the devil in me is coming out again but the good devil la..In few weeks i will deliver my first child.I must be strong,must be myself coz seems like i lost the true identity.Its not that im being hypocrite or whatsoever..Just more act to pleased other people but me.Had the feel 'ENUF' oready.What have to be done must be done.What have to do must be going!Wanna start over everything.My child will be my new life with new way.I must be strong and hope Allah will give me the strength to stand straight and firm..Aminn...

Artist: Kelly Clarkson
Song: Behind These Hazel Eyes
Album: Breakaway (2004)

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of meI used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes